Whatcha think??

**Genie!** · March 20th, 2002, 05:00 AM

Ok, last night I had what appears to be an ephiphany. I was alone and bored and thinking about so many things. I was feeling kinda down with the blahs. When out of nowhere, I grabbed a pen and wrote what you might call a "rap" or "poem" whatever ya want to call it. I have NEVER written anything in my life like a poem or rap or anything. So, I thought I would put it here and see what all of you think of it. Please give me your honest opinion, and don't worry about hurting my feelings because I'm already expecting mixed emotions and bad reviews and opinions like that. anyway, here is the first thing I have ever written, I dont even know if I will have words flow from my life onto paper as they did last night. this could have only been a one time thing. Anyway, what i wrote is the first reply below.

**Genie!** · March 20th, 2002, 05:17 AM

"If It Would just Rain"
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Trapped inside this pain
Who am I, Who are you
When it all goes down, It's yourself you really gotta be true to
Living my life for me and my kids
But on the road of my life,
Theres nothing but speed bumps, accidents and skids
Theres so much pain, nobody would know I'm crying if it would just rain

25 years old, about to become a single mother of 2
I trusted you
You wouldn't understand me, you wouldnt care
Why couldnt you just accept me for being me
Why has life got to be so unfair
Now i'm left with a heart so broken, I'm choking
And I wonder can my broken heart ever be repaired
You held me down, broke my spirit, made me scared
Now i'm living my life in vain
I'm bitter and cold
This shits getting so old
Theres so much pain, nobody would know I'm crying if it would just rain.

Yeah i had affairs,
You were never there
I was just looking for someone to love me
Someone who would care
Respect, love and adore me
What? Is that the kind of man you could never be?
Now your thinking your the man
Trying to take my kids from me, is that your revenge, is that your plan
You break my spirit down and act so tough
Havent I cried enough?
And theres just so much pain, nobody would know im crying if it would just rain.

Now your finealy gonna let me go, let me fly
But at what price?
To have to tell my kids goodbye?
All I wanted to do was feel free and be happy
But you never allowed me to be the real me
You wanted me to be someone, something I couldn't be
You wanted me to live a lie
Take my kids? Yeah, you must want me to die
Theres too much pain, nobody would know I'm crying if it would just rain.

I could just cry for days
But i'll never let you know how bad you hurt me that way
I'll just bottle it up and hold it inside
You said you'd never hurt me,
well guess what, you lied.
Now all the love I had for you has died
And it all ended when you expected me to tell my kids goodbye
Hell no, I'll never give in.
This is one battle you wont win.
Because even if I lose, I still win myself
I wont be your property, your caged animal
Your little play toy so you can say you have something to control
Even if I lose, I still win back my soul
Theres so much pain, nobody would know i'm crying if it would just rain.